wo tu ran lei le. can u don make me feel this way? can someone make me disappear from this world? i will be so glad. really.. thanks. why must me n mel be so cham. mel is really very very sad. mel pls cheer up.. u still have me. really. if nth happened wouldnt it be great? i wonder.. i want to change back the time. but its all too late. wo zhen de lei le. im a great big fool reassuring myself he is busy everyday. i cannot take it anymore. i feel like crying. crying all day. its raining now. what a great day. when im sick. i care for him more than i care for myself. does he even know that? not in a million years. yes im such a failure. pls let me die. crying doesnt make a difference right? but i cannot control it anymore. ppl will say im a crybaby. but i really cnt do anything except cryin. im so lonely. my family.. all. i hate it. why must ppl treat me like that? when i treat ppl gd the results returned arent the same? WHY WHY WHY??????????????????? i still love u alot. just like what mel feels. mel cheer up pls. i can see ur heart is bleeding. hais.....